I’ve got news: Your very own overemotional poet and favourite (ha) blogger graduates high school tomorrow!!
It seems like a dream. Yes, high school graduation is overrated in the States – congrats, you can read, write, and name the two houses of Congress. But I have dragged myself through the last two years, trying to keep my depression, anxiety, and possibly ADD (more on that another day) in check, and I’m endlessly proud of myself for just being here today. Also, I really like my dress (which took 6 hours to find), and that’s exciting because it’s very difficult for me to feel self-confident.
I’m not sad. My tears are of relief. I care very little for the 480 classmates I’ll be leaving behind, and I’m so ready to begin university, to study what I want to, to surround myself with books and politics and like-minded people.
I’m holding my breath, not willing to accept it until it’s over, tiptoeing around the reality of the event because I’m scared it will slip away. A junior at my school tweeted this, and it scares the ever-living shit out of me.
I know it’s totally irrational, but I don’t think I’ll breathe again until the ceremony is over. There’s no way in hell I can do this all over again, and I have a weird relationship with dreams.
I can share picture(s) of graduation if anyone would like. I’ll see how they turn out. If you care, let me know.
Anyway, I’ll hopefully be doing a roadtrip in early June, flying up to NY and driving back to Oklahoma with my new car. I’ll be doing a major stop in D.C. and am over the moon with excitement. I haven’t been there yet, and the place is steeped in political history – I wish I could depart tomorrow! But we’re moving houses next week, so I have to wait. But I am busy putting together a travel plan and budget (and researching obsessively), so if you live anywhere in NY, DC, VA, the Carolinas, MD, etc. and have a recommendation, please let me know! I haven’t been to the East much. I’ll be blogging during the trip if I can, albeit from my phone.
So, I had my last-ever class in high school today and signed up for two Blogging U. courses as soon as I sat down at my computer. I’m really looking forward to getting back into the swing of things, and possibly even exploring more of the factual, political aspects of writing to get prepared – I’ll be majoring in Journalism or Professional Writing (and Classics.) Feel free to weigh in on whether you’d have any interest in that.
My journey as an adult can now officially begin. Thank you all for sticking with me through everything. This site makes my heart full ❤