- boys/crushes/shitty things like that · 1) EVERYTHING · 3) THOUGHTS

an old* ramble that’s relatable

I’m always getting over a guy by looking at the next one, because your presence in the room doesn’t matter when I’m waiting for him to walk in and I don’t even notice that your name doesn’t show up on the screen anymore when his has taken its place.

It’s a wonderful remedy, but it is inevitably destructive, because before I know it I’ve gotten attached and then I obviously have to let thatย break and set my sights somewhere else to forget youย and it’s a fucking vicious cycle and I always think this is it, he’s the last one,ย but I’m wrong – so wrong.

So when I tell myself how much he matters I have to take myself with a grain of salt because the one who talks the most shit is me. I’m constantly lying to myself – maybe the reason I cant be straightforward with anyone else is because I won’t even tell myself the answers so there’s no way in hell you’re gonna be getting them anytime soon.

 

*”old” meaning about a month ago

Advertisements

What did you think?

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s