Right now, Daily Post. Right now.
First of all, since everyone was so encouraging yesterday I thought I should share this :3 I PASSED! thank you all so much ❤ My heart was ready to beat out of my chest when the examiners were discussing my score
I’m ecstatic about my license, but this weird feeling of pressure and anxiety that’s been hanging over me lately hasn’t subsided at all. I had attributed the majority of it to the whole failing fiasco, so now that I’ve passed (with a 96% :D) and gotten the license, and the feeling is still there, I’m not really sure what to do.
I’m so so excited about the freedom that I have now, but this place I’m in mentally and emotionally is honestly nothing I’ve ever dealt with before. I’m going to make it through this week and see how I’m feeling at the end of the weekend…
I’m terribly sorry about all the posts lately about how I’m feeling and stuff – I’ve been able to come up with virtually no poetry at all, and it’s very frustrating. Nothing sounds good… I’m going to make an effort to write, though; even if it sucks, I need to get some poems scratched down or I’m going to go even more insane than I already feel.
Anyway, I think the way things have been progressing in my mind and life fit this prompt to a tee – what with my license and him and all, I really should be happy now, but I’m hovering between apathy and depression and dislike of myself and everyone around me.
Thanks, if you read this. The lame, boring, feelings posts will hopefully cease soon.