Christ. I’ve gone and failed my driving test for the second time in a row; I had a meltdown in the car after the examiner left. I’m so unbelievably frustrated – I am not a bad driver. A lot of my driving is better than that of my useless friends. But the thing is, I never did driver’s ed, and even though I watched a bunch of videos beforehand, remembering all the little technicalities is really difficult. The DPS frankly doesn’t give a shit about my awesome highway skills and night driving abilities – they just want to know if I can meet their set of criteria perfectly. And I messed up like one thing each time.
Which I suppose is good. I’m glad they make sure everyone does everything correctly.But the fact that numerous idiots at my school are capable of passing this and I managed to fail (TWICE) is killing me. I refused to go back to school afterwards. I’m trying again tomorrow, and if I manage to bomb this shit for a third time I’m honestly just going to cry for the rest of the week and enroll myself in an online school.
Can’t they just mash the two tests I took together and superscore them like colleges do on the ACT? Take all the best parts from each and let me pass? ‘Cause I didn’t make the same mistakes the second time.
Maybe that’s my problem. Comparing the driving test to the ACT… I honestly feel like I’m unequipped to handle parts of life that aren’t school-related. And it’s not that I like school or anything – I detest it at the moment. But that’s where I concentrate so much of my emotions and energy and effort, in my schoolwork and tests and such, and I’m beginning to realise it’s a bit detrimental.
I’m not saying that’s why I failed. It was just a tangent my brain followed when I tried to relate the driving test back to the way I handle school and realised that was a stupid thing to do.
Whatever. I’m extremely mopey and upset and tired.My best friend brought me coffee and I had lunch at a nice place with my mom and we went shopping and I got some clothes (I hate trying stuff on though). Also I convinced her to buy the first eggnog of the season. And I didn’t have to go to school.
Actually a pretty great day, right? At any other time I would say absolutely, Victoria, what the hell are you whining about? But I’m not used to failing things, especially twice in a row, and I cannot shake the feeling that I’m going to mess it up tomorrow again. It’s all just really really bothering me. I JUST WANT MY LICENSE OKAY.
Well, I’m off to get my friend’s help on some incomprehensible mathematical crap. Have a nice day/night/afternoon/evening/life, everyone.