Whatever. I told him how I felt. Well, sort of.
He didn’t reciprocate it, but I wasn’t even disappointed – I didn’t let myself hope at all since I was already pretty aware of his general feelings towards me.
Although I wish he felt the same way, I’m not surprised and I’m not going to let it affect me. It really helped to tell him because now when we’re having an argument and he’s pushing me to answer I no longer have to hold back my constant “BECAUSE I LIKE YOU SO MUCH OKAY?!” Not that I’m going to shout that at him, but I’m glad he knows now.
I also think not internalising it will help me get over him… That’s all I’ve really been trying to do, honestly, because I know, despite his slight affinity for me, he’ll never want what I do. That being said, I’m not telling anyone else. Especially ’cause my best friend has been talking to him lately and my unreasonably jealous personality just wants to go crazy about it. She doesn’t need to know…I never confide in my friends about matters of the heart. (Sorry lamest line ever actually written).
So, you guys get to know because my friends don’t. Hurrah!
~A Liberated Teenage Poet