I want to cry, I want to sob in someone’s arms as they rock me to sleep
and know they care about me enough to keep me out of this deep
fucking pit but I don’t know who can do it,
my family loves me but I feel like shit
every time I remember I don’t deserve it
and my head hurts like a million tiny stars are being born inside me
and I feel like you’re the only one that can satisfy me
but I don’t think you’ve ever cared half that much
and if you don’t then why am I in such
a good place when I dream about you,
a castle that falls when I know it’s not true
and I wake up and you’re thing first thing on my mind.
Then the weight and the worries and college and time
and I’m losing it slowly but surely as hell.
So just tell them all I’ve been feeling unwell.